think i've broke my own record of not updating for a super duper long period of time..haha.. for those who r always online, they shd noe that i seldom use msn(which means i seldom use e com..).. so dat prob explains y i've not touched dis blog for lik... 5mths?? hahaha..
but since hols r here AGAIN.. i shall TRY (note: it's TRY.. no promise k...) to update as often as i can alright? =)
hmm... many many things happened to mi in this past 5mths.. happy moments n some realli unplesant ones that haunted mi for weeks.. even till now..
jc life din turn out to be as great as wad i've been lookin forward to since cchs days..i used to think that as long as i manage to get into vj n vjchoir, everything else would turn out fine for mi and these 2 yrs would prob be really enjoyable n sorta carefree.. lil did i expect my results to plunge so drastically from what i'm used to achieve in cchs n choir schedule to be so busy throughout the year.. basically, this yr was quite a nightmare for mi, except that i've got a fantastic bunch of frens that kept mi going.. =) jc life turned out to be MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH more stressful den wad i was mentally prepared for.. never got worst grades b4.. never felt so aimless, hopeless, helpness and stressed b4.. thoughts of leaving vj n going back to sydney to study for gd kept flashing in my mind.. why try so hard and make life so diff for myself to get a gd alvl cert when there's an easier path for mi to take n still get into a uni? but shall not let this bother mi till i get my promo results back..
my grandma passed away in august as well.. i was aware dat her health was on the decline these few yrs and knew dat she'll eventually leave us for good.. but everytime she was admitted to hospital due to her lungs infection, she always pulls it through and recover.. so i was quite unprepared when e doc told us there was lil hope left.. never under-estimate one's willpower, for my grandma survived through many relapse dat would haf taken her life if not for her strong determination to life.. took abt a wk off sch to help with e funeral preparations.. both in s'pore and back in sydney, where she is now buried next to my late grandpa.. it was an emotional period in s'pore.. wif red n swollen eyes almost everyday..
but it got better when we went back to sydney for a wk.. coz my eldest cousin, irene brought her 2 1/2 yrs old adopted daughter along with her.. she's SO CUTE n sticks wif mi all e time..=P so i spent most of my time playing with her n "escape" from reality.. e cutest thing abt her is that whenever my aunt or i sing to her, she'll stop wadever she's doing and listen attentively to u.. bit by bit, she'll start humming the tune of the song.. DAMN CUTE!!!!xD so i tried teaching her dis simple cantochildren's song.. which was e v 1st song i learnt from my aunt.. hopefully she'll still rmb it e next time i see her.. =] (but doubt she'll rmb mi since i prob wun see her any sooner coz she lives in usa.. sobs)
anyways.. my mum wanted mi to make a speech at the final service held in sydney, sorta a testimonial for my grandma.. so i decided to do it in canto coz it's e language dat we communicate in.. shant go into e details of the speech.. but i broke down lik 2 words into the speech..-.- which was far earlier den wad i've expected ( which was after 1st para...lol) so ya.. sniffed my way through e speech and my eyes were red n swollen after i finished..haha.. (worst of all.. i onli had 1 piece of soaking wet tissue wif mi..lol..)
when everything was over and had to return back for sch, i had e urge to juz leave everything behind here n study in sydney, with my bro.. prob coz life there is in a much slower pace as compared to life here.. but coz of all the things that i simply cant bear to leave behind, i decided to let promos decide my fate..
though it's painful to lose someone so dear to me.. and it'll prob take a while b4 i fully recover from it.. i feel that i shd be happy for my grandma instead coz she's no longer suffering from all the pain and sickness that she've battled with these few years.. she's in heaven now wif my grandpa, and will always look out for us.. :) love you always, grandma...
choir had quite a few performances this yr.. besides sov in may, we performed with SCO (s'pore chinese orchestra) for their 10th aniversary celebration concert thingy... it was quite an experience coz haf neva sang with a large orchestra b4.. (though i sang wrongly a couple of times..=X)
was involved in s'pore idol finals as well.. never ever haf i ever felt more pampered coz everyday including rehearsal days, we would haf professionals doing our makeup and hair.. making mi daydream of being a real star..but e stupid hairdresser screwed up my hair on e actual day of s'pore idol finals!!!(i totally froze when he scooped up a whole "comb-full" of gel n sleaked all my hair to e back.. including my fringe.. sigh.. totally ruined my mood for e day..) i would haf enjoyed myself 10000 times more if i din haf to worry so much about the sickening promos that was drawing near.. tried to study during the long waiting periods(which was at least 4 hrs long each day.. for 3 days) but failed.. so wasted 72hrs.. sigh..
[[at the end of e yr, we'll be carolling during e xmas period n having another concert!!! we'll be performing a musical -Les Miserables.. will post e details next time..xD]]
that's all for now i guess..
byes..
fran
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